If only i knew black magic.

My boss is such an arse. If i hadn't been such a nice girl i would have told him to fuck off. I won't get into any details, i really can't be bothered to explain everything he's done but i am SO quitting that job. Everything is his fault. And i was so happy that i had a job. I remember how thrilled i was when my (old) boss called me five minutes after the interview and told me i could start the next day. I had been unemployed for almost a year and applied for thousands of jobs, and finally someone wanted me. I really couldn't wish for anything more. And involuntarily i have to be unemployed again, and who knows for how long? Unless you have a master's degree in rocket science you can't even get a job at a fast-food stand, at least it feels that way.
What the hell was i born into this time? I don't want this life at all. I'm just a girl from the country, i'm not supposed to do this. I'm supposed to be at home in the forest with all the animals, that's me. I swear, if the Amish people hadn't been so damn religious i would have joined them ages ago.

Go west, love

To quote someone famous - you know who.

There so is a feeling i get when i look to the west.

To the west lies the life i dream of. I can't wait until i get there.

My friends would know what i'm talking about here ;)

Tinkering around

How great it feels to have the day off! I'm not going to do ANYTHING today. Too bad it can't always be like this though. I'm such a lazy arse. I would just lurve to do nothing and still get money for it. But then again, who wouldn't...?

I just watched the latest Idol show while i was eating breakfast. I love to eat breakfast late when i'm home. Ok trust me, i'm not one of those people who's an Idol freak. I just like to watch the performances. I don't care who's winning. I never even watch the voting. lol. There. I'm cleared of suspicions.

I was thinking i should write some songs today. It's been ages since i last did that. I've downloaded the MasterWriter and it's really a HUGE help for me. Especially since i suck at rhyming. Not that it's necessary, i just like songs that rhyme. Too bad it can't write music though... It's kind of disturbing, each time i'm home alone i always say i'll do things that i NEED to do. Ok do not count things like cleaning my room and stuff like that, but more like other things. That i never do. And there is one certain thing that i want to finish but i haven't done it in a year or so. That's finish painting the Beldhardian life. I'll explain. Being born in the wrong time and all i've created a country. A fantasy country called Beldharde. No it's not a LOTR-copy even though it's set in the same time. There are no elves, orcs or dawrves. Just humans and night wanderers. It was meant to be a story but since i suck at writing stories i decided to paint the lives of the people in that country. And share it with the world (visit Beldharde). And even though i say i'll do it i can't! Cause i'm stuck. I don't have any new inspiration and that sucks. I'm always so creative. Why can't i come up with anything now?

Muse please come back?

What difference does two days make?

Two days in a human life.. what difference does that make?

It's the question i ask myself when i'm upset about what happened at work today. See, i hate my boss. I hate hate hate him. The thing is that we have a new boss now. K, the old one was a bitch but at least she followed the rules and kept order. The new boss is like mentally disturbed. The first thing he did when he came was to tell the vice boss that he should not have any responsibility whatsoever, he should work no more than two hours a day and she (the vice boss) should be ressponsible for all notifications of illness and stuff like that, 24 hours a day, all days. We who work at the restaurant are not going to talk to him about anything, if there's something we have to talk about we're going to contact the vice boss. He changes people's schedules without even telling them and he puts people up on working hours without taking into consideration who work part time and who don't. It's his job to find out. Last weekend i was supposed to work from 16-01 and he suddenly changed it to 11-20... like, what if i had come five hours late that day? And he didn't even introduce himself when he came. Oh, i could ramble for hours..

Anyway. That's not what i was going to write. Vice boss quit (understandably) and now she's only there at times. Like never.. SO. I had to tell S. about my notification of illness this thursday and friday. Cause i have been sick for over a week and i'm still not well. And it's not going to get better if i'm working all the time. He was angry (as always) and told me that i had to bring a doctor's certificate on thursday. Firstly, i'm not supposed to do that until i've been away for six days IN A ROW, unless i'm one of those people who is always "sick". I've been working there for six months. Been sick for ONE day before. And that was in April. He said it had changed because of the new government. I believed him, cause i didn't know. I found out later today that he was standing there lying to my face! Secondly, say i get that stupid certificate. I'm ill that day, i'm not supposed to go anywhere, and definitely not to work. Even says so in the law. My thoughts wandered off to "old Järnbrott", how everything used to be and the fucking fact that i'm stuck there with S. for probably a long time now since it's impossible to get a job in this miserable country.